So I smoke. That is no mystery. But I realized again today is that it is just another testiment to the fact that I don't really have much respect for myself. I hear the voices outside of me, people that truly care. People who refresh the evidence of my generosity and full heart. Why can't I feel that, live that in my own body?
Therapy has not really been a healer in that arena. Self actualization has. Working helps. But, how to make it a solid wall that assists in my persuit to become whole and at peace?
I sure have learned alot in my life. And I have accomplished so much that others find impossible to penetrate. But, this self respect issue is a deep deep river. I must navigate successfully soon, so I do earn the respect of my child. If not, there will be hell to pay in the long run.
thoughts? similar experiences? anything!? thanks in advance for your insights.
as always, peace and love. memsahib.