A decision is definitive when you act on a thought. Each decision you make is an opportunity to change either for the better or worse. I have really been focusing on that these last two months. What decisions am I making? Are they serving my greater self? Do I really need that extra serving of hummus? Complex to simple. They are opportunities. They are choices that you make.
They are momentary and are a ripple in a much bigger pond. Don't be fooled into thinking otherwise. If I hadn't made the decision to sleep with someone when I did, I wouldn't have this wonderful child. If I had made better decisions about food, I wouldn't be overweight and feeling sorry for myself. A decision to disregard someones desires, or intentions, can cost you a friendship.
One of these decisions is regarding the time I spend on the computer/TV/Vegging. My child has reached a very influential age, where he needs my undivided attention and input of knowledge. But, sometimes at the end of a very long day, I just feel like watching TV or zoning out at the computer and chatting with friends. I must make better decisions where that time is spent. No. I will make a better decision. I can't get that time back. That time is NOW.
A positive decision I have made, I am going to the gym. He seems totally ecstatic about going to the Y to play games with the older kids. This will help in my goal to become a healthier mom. And teaching him some regard for his physical being. And, I don't want to be the Fat MoM! I want to be the Fun MOM!
Right now the most difficult decision I have is about the food I put in my body. I have a serious love of food and cooking. But, its time to make a change. I have two excellent cookbooks from Weight Watchers and need to start really diving into those recipes. Hoping that the picky little one will eat whatever that makes. And if he doesn't, that I will not eat the mac & cheese or rice and beans I make for him. Plus his love of the cheese is genetic. Thankfully the fat free mozzarella is pretty close to real cheese. Fat Free cheddar is a joke. That is NOT cheese. I splurge sometimes, but its in my head to make wise decisions where my diet is concerned, having larger portions of the good stuff definitely outweighs the smaller portions of the fatty foods.
Decisions are all related to a bigger picture. I have been on the dark side of decision making for quite some time. Its a long road back up the mountain. I hope that you are better at it than I am. I am changing my course, but its going to take some time. Being patient with myself is not a decision that I have settled into as much. But, one decision at a time.