There are many ways of breaking a heart. Stories were full of hearts broken by love,
but what really broke a heart was taking away its dream - whatever that dream might be.
Pearl S. Buck

Friday, August 31


I know a girl
She puts the color inside of my world
But she's just like a maze
Where all of the walls all continually change
And I've done all I can
To stand on the steps with my heart in my hands
Now I'm starting to see
Maybe it's got nothing to do with me

Fathers be good to your daughters,
Daughters will love like you do,
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too

Oh, you see that skin?
It's the same shes been standing in
Since the day she saw him walking away
Now shes left
Cleaning up the mess he made

So Fathers be good to your daughters,
Daughters will love like you do,
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too

Boys you can break
You'll find out how much they can take
Boys will be strong and
Boys soldier on
But boys would be gone
without warmth from
A woman's good, good heart

On behalf of every man
Looking out for every girl
You are the god and the weight of her world
So Fathers be good to your daughters,
Daughters will love like you do,
Girls become lovers who turn into mothers
So mothers be good to your daughters too

John Mayer ~ Daughters

I remember the first time I heard this song on the radio. I don't really remember where I was, but I remember thinking, wow. I had a father that was not home much at all, and so I barely got to know him as a man while growing up. I learned a little after completing my interview with him last weekend. Why do most men find it so difficult to be forthcoming about themselves? Is it something that shows weakness being human? Is it just something they have no reason to regurgitate? I understand there are differences between the sexes. I guess I grew up thinking that we were more alike than we are because I didn't have a complete exposure. who knows. And I am silly to assume that men can understand women either! :giggles:

That being said, I am sorry to 3 men that I have hurt (regarding my personal intimate relationships) for my inability to see you for what you were, and respect that. And not beat you up because you are who you are. I have no excuses only a realization that I could probably have done things differently, for myself, and for the sustaining of our "time" together in a more peaceable fashion. Water under the bridge. I still love each of you, but its done. You have moved on with life, as have I.

Now, I am in the process of molding a little man. YIKES! i am roflol, like that is going to happen. Its more like, show him what is acceptable and what isn't, punish accordingly, and give him tons and tons of love. right? RIGHT? geez.

men are different. i love them with all my being, but, very very different.


  1. We may be different, but we fucking rule!!!!


    Sorry...a little drunk right now.

  2. yea that sucks huh earle? stupid asshats

  3. That song makes me sad. My dad was around but he wasn`t very kind so I always wished he wasn`t there. And I have found myself dating guys who like him treated me very badly. Sucky pattern to be in. let`s see where this new thing goes. Maybe no where seeing as how I don`t trust men. Bleh I say to love and relationships. Ah, at least it`ll be fun if nothing else.

  4. Before I was different.
    Now, I'm the same.
    - -
    F a t h e r L u k e

  5. You pathetic fat bitch!


  6. karma: I am so glad you see things for what they are. just belive. K? k.

    father: u always inspire.

    johnny/ambigious: if i was as fat as you are pathetic? then we would have something to worry about, asshat.

  7. Earle: why yes. you do rule... :wink:

  8. well, I am fatter so there!

    when I was growing up, my dad was the coolest, best father, ever. I felt like he could protect me from anything. I am very lucky :)

  9. This jonathan scumbag needs castration, without benefit of anesthesia. A man who would talk to a Woman in that way isn't worth a bucket of camel spit, a smear of housefly poop, or a whiff of swamp gas.

    He is probably a lonely and miserable loser who lives in a basement or a cardboard box under a bridge.

    I'm sorry he dribbled his pathetic self into Your blog, Miss Melanie.

  10. Earle: Call me a traitor to my gender if you like, but Women rule!

  11. ECD: yea. he is a troll... and they are around to remind us to be thankful for our sanity.

    It's a pleasure to have someone like you here as well. and earle, who is kinda sexy for a punk a**. :giggles: