There are many ways of breaking a heart. Stories were full of hearts broken by love,
but what really broke a heart was taking away its dream - whatever that dream might be.
Pearl S. Buck

Thursday, April 23


At a point in my life I met someone I believed was my true friend. I honored his life. I saw who he was. I realized that I could help this person, so I chose to do that without asking anything in return. I continued this gracious cause as long as I could, despite naysayers. I know good people when I see them. Most people do.

Today this person chose to dismiss me and my feelings for something that is of lesser value than a human life.

I stand in shame thinking that I was wrong. Deceived again by someone that lied to me by lying to themselves. I BLAME myself. I tried to stay away. I resisted and even tried to have lengthy conversations with this person about how I would be hurt and listened to them telling me we should be together. "Don't worry, I wont hurt you or abandon you. This is a forever thing. I can't see my life without you."

I can't wait to hear yet another justification of how that was ok to say when I didn't really mean it.

People LIE. don't fool yourself. there is no more honor in this world.



  1. Love you kiddo. Don't be so hard on yourself.

  2. would you like me to kick someone's butt for you? I totally will.