There are many ways of breaking a heart. Stories were full of hearts broken by love,
but what really broke a heart was taking away its dream - whatever that dream might be.
Pearl S. Buck

Thursday, April 23

Honor

At a point in my life I met someone I believed was my true friend. I honored his life. I saw who he was. I realized that I could help this person, so I chose to do that without asking anything in return. I continued this gracious cause as long as I could, despite naysayers. I know good people when I see them. Most people do.

Today this person chose to dismiss me and my feelings for something that is of lesser value than a human life.

I stand in shame thinking that I was wrong. Deceived again by someone that lied to me by lying to themselves. I BLAME myself. I tried to stay away. I resisted and even tried to have lengthy conversations with this person about how I would be hurt and listened to them telling me we should be together. "Don't worry, I wont hurt you or abandon you. This is a forever thing. I can't see my life without you."

I can't wait to hear yet another justification of how that was ok to say when I didn't really mean it.

People LIE. don't fool yourself. there is no more honor in this world.

i AM A FOOL.

3 comments:

  1. Love you kiddo. Don't be so hard on yourself.

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  2. would you like me to kick someone's butt for you? I totally will.

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