The more I try to connect to people, romantically, the worse it gets... sigh.
That aspect is not disheartening, the feeling of being alone is. The knowledge that in this life no one has fit the balance of me. Where is that zing to my zang? the right to my left, and left to my right? I thought I found you. It felt right! I thought you felt it too. Maybe you do/did, but your lack of communication isn't a key to any door that I might be able open and find to you.
The sad reality of humans is we rely on words to get what we want, no matter. Whether we mean them or not. Some people use words to hurt others, some to help, some just to obtain what they want for that minute. There isn't an investment in the integrity of word choices for some people. Today one of those people resurfaced into my realm... Sadly I wish him nothing but evil thoughts... and feel stupid for believing anything he ever said in the first place. A road down to the self doubt kiosk. Take a number, because at one point or another everyone in my life has triggered me to doubt myself, as I have lived in self doubt for many many years!
Ok, I think I have a solution!!! Magic Mirror on the wall, who is the most super fabulous person that never doubts herself at all???? yea. mellifluous magical mermaid-like me. Just keep swimming... :whistle: