Monday, August 27
Sheesh... there should be a warning label attached to some people... FRAUDULENT appearance... proceed with caution!
Friday, August 24
I need a safe place to allow all the thoughts to fly up in the air, watching them like a fairy dance and seeing the colors cascade about in conjunction with each other. Which colors reach you the easiest? Which ones that make you smile the most? Which ones last the longest? Which colors fade and leaving a spot on your retina taking time to disappear?
I want my sketch book, a bag of pencils, a tree and time to make sense of it all... a few kisses wouldn't hurt!
Thursday, August 23
One element through it all is happiness and enjoyment. If I have too much time spent on others or with others, there is a longer time for me to come back to center. When I am centered and not distracted, things flow for me. totally! So the manifestation is to have enough money flowing that i can work on my own projects and get my artistic communication out there~
Yea!!! AND in 6 days, I am going to drive away and really have some time alone to think and draw and be. long time coming.
Wednesday, August 22
I felt comforted yesterday. Your renewed presence lifted my perspective and outlook. This morning I woke up with paintings on my mind. Inspiration bb.
I am grateful for the circumstances that brought me to where we noticed each other. Stepping out is the next move. Am I worthy? I feel alive with self confidence. There is comfort and I can allow things to be as they are. Yea bb.
Tuesday, August 21
fighting fears of the known and unknown. life is the present and always moving, sometimes with a turbulence. I want you, and don't want fear to enter there.
you are clearly defined in your wants. maybe i should be more so in mine.
Sunday, August 19
Words are words. They don't properly define feelings in many cases. You perceive your world through the physical. Five senses guide our radars into the unkown. How educated are you into honoring the instinctual capabilities of you???
Have you run through a forest with your eyes closed and not hit one single tree?? I have. Trust is an asset and never based on history. Trust is based in the moments. Live there.
Saturday, August 18
Friday, August 17
I am alone
I have a friend
I have a throne
I have a laugh
I have a smile
I wish for you to stay awhile.
there is no now
there is no then
I saw a pigeon
I saw a wren
I saw some branches
I sat down to breathe
frightened peacock approached me
I sing the song
I like to hear
a song that echoes
in a mermaids ear
joy is hope
pain is passion
moments spent in prone aggression
colors are bright
eyes will glimmer
the storm will pass
the leaves will shimmer
I have no courage
my will isn't pride
I meet the truth on the other side.
Anyway, it got me to thinking about the creative mind and the processes of that. Some artists have the balance of left and right brain thinking, others (like myself) not so much. Left brain has about half the power that my right brain commands. In other words, the left brain is a nice place to visit, but there is no way I could live there.
Understanding of the power I am capable of wielding from sticking with my genetic code has only become completely obvious to me since I was resigned from my last corporate prison cell. I was on the road to ruin quickly under the guise that I had to have "insurance and other benefits" along with my job. The only reason I used them was because I was sick of sitting there with people that didn't appreciate me for 8-10 hours a day.
I am curious to see if there is a process for us creative types to have some admin capabilities that aren't based on traditional means of input. Worth exploring huh? Maybe I should develop audio task list software, or just have ourselves a robot that can do all that tedious work for us....
Ok i am off to finish up some data entry.. bleck. Maybe if i did it in the Nude it would make me feel more free? lol... sigh... I am grateful to have work that needs monitoring!
Monday, August 13
Friday, August 3
I always have felt like I was going to miss out on something if I stood up for myself. I felt I was going to be missing out on an adventure or an experience if I didn't give in to something that made me feel a little uncomfortable. Now i realize that its a matter of degrees! Somethings aren't worth experiencing.
Learning my own boundaries has been a LONG process... and i have the scars to prove my battle readiness. I am now seeking the salve to heal the deeper wounds I carry.
I know he is out there waiting for me to soothe him as well... now the lesson of continued patience kicks in. Dear one, please know that I believe you are there, and I am willing to heal you as i wish you to heal me.