Its amazing to me how often in this life I have found myself on the edge of things. Close to losing it all. I am certain that most of it is from my conscious choices to remain stubborn and true to self. Interesting things manifest when you get to the edge. New opportunities that you hadn't before been approached with. Things always work OUT!
I am thankful for the ability to further gain experience surfing these waves of uncertainty. This time around I feel more comfortable with them than I ever have. Just allowing the warm waves to flow over and through me, waiting to arrive again at the shore of stability with a deeper faith of what is happening right now is ALWAYS the right thing, no matter how shitty it may seem at the time.
I do know one thing, I am tired of doing this alone. I do love my son and he is a comfort to me in so many ways, but its not the same as having a partner. Physical needs are very important in my world.
So one step closer, trust the universe, seize opportunity, don't misread the signs, forget the spells, don't doubt myself, laugh at negativity, sleep well, eat right, wait for the man who respects me and sees me as his other, and don't settle.