Tonight I thought I was finally having some honest dialogue with a person who called themselves my friend. Asked me a question, I answered the best I could. And finally felt some relief about this situation! I felt like there was a part of me that finally made some sense. A situation made a lot more sense. It wasn't necessarily what I wanted to happen, but honestly I care about this person and their happiness is more important than my desires.
As i lightened up very very much, my son said to me, mom you are acting crazy, like you are drunk. I was taken off guard. I started thinking, you know when i am drunk, i must act relieved and happy. And he hasn't seen me that way UNLESS i was drunk.
Wow, thats a pretty hefty reality. I am going to have to take some time to ponder all that!
ill get back to you as soon as I have more to say about that. :)