I made it through a long session this winter. I don't think I have been as aware of how down I could get until now, and that is saying something! I have experienced so much I didn't feel it was possible. I think seeing my aging parents and my teenager son grow to be taller than me has reminded me that the end could happen. :)
What lead me to writing today was how to find an inspiration to continue out these days of my life, which is a great deal! I will be where I want to be - but what guides me? My life has been like an ocean voyage from one place to another, a traveler of sorts. I like that sort of life. Each stop gives me more information, more interaction, more energy for living and creating inspiration. I have been pretty static for a few years, so its itchy feet time again. I think I need to not ignore it, but not necessarily follow it this time around!
I am looking for a way to really find what I want out of life, which seems weird at my age, but so be it. I know I seek more spiritual enlightenment, and I argue with that because I have a child, and in order to really find that you must abandon all "attachments". Learning what the balance is maybe the only lesson I have during this phase of enlightenment.
I am posting these here because no one reads my blog and I need a place to journal that I will go to and keep up with.